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Year in Review: Part 2

If you’re just joining me for Year in Review, I’ve committed the last week of this year to reflecting on 2010 and planning on 2011. Let me recap last night’s questions, and if you’d like to join me, answer these questions by linking your blog or grabbing your journal!

How did I spend my time this year and how would I like to improve on that?

What am I feeling particularly grateful for and what would I like to see grow?

Last night I continued my journal entry with this question, “In the past year, how have I contributed to the person I want to be? In regard to that ideal, what has set me back? What has propelled me forward?” I believe that we always have room for improvement and I love! Love! LOVE! to find a good role model.

There are two women that come to mind as soon as I think the words “role model,” and both of these ladies seem on top of the world. I love the sophistication of their homes, the elegance of their demeanor, and the ease of their social presence. You know the type: never a hair out-of-place, never an ordinary dessert, and never a child unkempt. Moreover, my role models deliver this perfection with extreme kindness and humility.

One of my role models is named Sandy, so I often asked myself this year, “What would Sandy do?” I applied that to my current situation: Would Sandy go to the grocery store in sweats with her hair in a messy knot? Absolutely not! With that one question, I’d be off to the bathroom to pretty myself up for the lovely girl at register 4. Sometimes, though, life was in the way–I had orders to fill, a workout to do, and a schedule to keep. I’d think, what the hell, the girl at register 4 never seems to notice all the work I do, anyway.

I’m realizing the many hats I wear, and how often I try to wear them all on the same day: jewelry designer, blogger, friend, mother, wife, housekeeper, cook, financial and marketing planner. As I sat in reflection, I realized the only thing holding me back is my desire to do everything, and do it all perfectly right this moment. I overwhelm myself with this ideal. For the first time last night, I noticed that my two role models had one thing in common: they each had a housekeeper. Gah!

Not that I’m opposed to having a housekeeper (yes, please!), but cleaning house gets messy. You’ve got to wear sweats and put your hair in a messy knot. To contribute to the person I want to be, I’ve made a conscious effort to keep a clean, organized, and efficient space. I’ve taken the time to workout, get my hair done, have a massage, and keep a tidy, peaceful space for me to retreat to at the end of a long day.

The second question I sat with last night was, “Where am I trying to force change, rather than go with the flow? What can I let go of?” For me, this question really complimented the first of the session, and started to bring the whole review together with a theme: Stop trying to force it all into one day. By doing so, I lose focus and deplete the quality of energy I spend. Instead of recognizing progress, I often become disgruntled by what remains undone. It seems I have some expectations to let go of!

I love how this is coming together, so far! I hope you’ll join me and tune in tomorrow for Part 3. Happy Year End Review!


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Year in Review: Part 1

I must admit, the end of the year is a bittersweet time for me, filled with a strange mix of sadness and hope. I mourn each year as it passes because I so thoroughly love this life. I don’t like for the years to end. On the other hand,  I can’t wait for the New Year to begin! What will it bring?! This life has unfolded for me in the most amazing ways, I never can tell what’s in store!

In this last week of the year, I have committed myself to a 5-day year-end review. Each night, I sit in comfort and silence as I reflect on and review what’s happened, and make notes for my New Year’s resolutions. I don’t take New Year’s resolutions planning lightly, but I don’t take the actual plan very seriously throughout the year. It’s a guideline, based on what I’ve learned in the past, for what I’d like to focus more of my time and attention on. I tune into what makes me feel good, and I strive for more of that. As I am always growing, what makes me feel good is always changing, and the plan is ever-evolving.

Last night I touched on how I invested my time this year. I pulled out my journal and I asked myself, “How did you spend your time this year and how would you like to improve on that?” If you’re interested in doing a year-end review, and you don’t already have a journal, I can’t express the importance of having one! When you’re following the ruminations of the mind without paper, you’re chasing thoughts that are too scattered to truly connect. I don’t believe anything gets solved from thinking. I believe you have to train your brain to allow inspirations and solutions, and those will only come to a quiet, calm mind.

With a journal, your thoughts escape to the page, freeing your mind of the ruminations. After a few minutes of writing, you wouldn’t believe the clarity that falls from the pen to the paper. Many-a-journal session has left me with solutions, insight, and understanding. I always walk away with a more peaceful perspective and a refreshed sense of self.

The question I asked myself left me with over a page of information on how I spent my time this year, and I’m proud of myself for taking care not to waste too many precious moments. A lot of family time, a lot of working on a small business that I love, and a good bit of fun. I am a self-proclaimed “clicker” (an internet-addicted, time-wasting web surfer), and I’ve vowed to try harder to heal that in the coming year.

The second question I asked myself in this entry was, “What am I feeling particularly grateful for and what would I like to grow?” I write “gratitude prayers” in my journal with every entry. For me, that’s what my journal is centered on. I love writing in my comfortable bed, inside my beautiful, warm home knowing that my children are healthy and peacefully sleeping in rooms all around me. My husband is somewhere about the house doing his own thing, and I’m crazy in love and connected to him. I know I enjoyed a hot cup of coffee, a cold sandwich, and a warm shower that day–a few of my favorite things. When I write it all down as a thank-you note, it helps me appreciate and honor this life I’m so in love with.

Last night I realized that the keyword for my New Year is growth. I feel it coming. I’ve spent the last year laying out a pretty solid foundation, and I’m proud of it. The Energy Shop has opened a few doors for me, and I’m excited to see what new doors those doors lead to! I’m growing, and I’m preparing my mind, body, and spirit for the transformation. Tune in tomorrow for the questions for Part 2. Happy Year End Review!


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