If you’re just joining me for Year in Review, I’ve committed the last week of this year to reflecting on 2010 and planning on 2011. Let me recap last night’s questions, and if you’d like to join me, answer these questions by linking your blog or grabbing your journal!
How did I spend my time this year and how would I like to improve on that?
What am I feeling particularly grateful for and what would I like to see grow?
Last night I continued my journal entry with this question, “In the past year, how have I contributed to the person I want to be? In regard to that ideal, what has set me back? What has propelled me forward?” I believe that we always have room for improvement and I love! Love! LOVE! to find a good role model.
There are two women that come to mind as soon as I think the words “role model,” and both of these ladies seem on top of the world. I love the sophistication of their homes, the elegance of their demeanor, and the ease of their social presence. You know the type: never a hair out-of-place, never an ordinary dessert, and never a child unkempt. Moreover, my role models deliver this perfection with extreme kindness and humility.
One of my role models is named Sandy, so I often asked myself this year, “What would Sandy do?” I applied that to my current situation: Would Sandy go to the grocery store in sweats with her hair in a messy knot? Absolutely not! With that one question, I’d be off to the bathroom to pretty myself up for the lovely girl at register 4. Sometimes, though, life was in the way–I had orders to fill, a workout to do, and a schedule to keep. I’d think, what the hell, the girl at register 4 never seems to notice all the work I do, anyway.
I’m realizing the many hats I wear, and how often I try to wear them all on the same day: jewelry designer, blogger, friend, mother, wife, housekeeper, cook, financial and marketing planner. As I sat in reflection, I realized the only thing holding me back is my desire to do everything, and do it all perfectly right this moment. I overwhelm myself with this ideal. For the first time last night, I noticed that my two role models had one thing in common: they each had a housekeeper. Gah!
Not that I’m opposed to having a housekeeper (yes, please!), but cleaning house gets messy. You’ve got to wear sweats and put your hair in a messy knot. To contribute to the person I want to be, I’ve made a conscious effort to keep a clean, organized, and efficient space. I’ve taken the time to workout, get my hair done, have a massage, and keep a tidy, peaceful space for me to retreat to at the end of a long day.
The second question I sat with last night was, “Where am I trying to force change, rather than go with the flow? What can I let go of?” For me, this question really complimented the first of the session, and started to bring the whole review together with a theme: Stop trying to force it all into one day. By doing so, I lose focus and deplete the quality of energy I spend. Instead of recognizing progress, I often become disgruntled by what remains undone. It seems I have some expectations to let go of!
I love how this is coming together, so far! I hope you’ll join me and tune in tomorrow for Part 3. Happy Year End Review!